Oh - and let's all say these things more often.
What a birthday weekend it was. I am always so surprised and feel so warm and fuzzy inside with all of the birthday love that I get from family, friends and even old college course group-mates that you never thought you'd hear from again.
Before I go on about my weekend.... Happy Birthday to my mom!!! Another year older and definitely another year wiser.
Now to the weekend - all kinds of low key adventures made my time over the past three days well-spent.
Of course a birthday wouldn't have been a birthday without a cool morning run - and happily with few distractions I did one of my quicker runs than I've done in a while. Dropping my goal to only 50 miles has proved to give me fresher legs each time I hit the pavement and a brighter outlook for 5 miles rather than 10-15!
And... went to bed at a decent time Sunday night to get myself in the right mindset for another long week ahead.
I can't thank you enough for all of the birthday love and I'm hoping this year will be as good as everyone wishes it'll go!
No Judgement allowed, but do you want to know what I did with my Thursday night?
First I went to Costco, where I almost got a pair of Red Hunters for $75 but wanted the gloss finish and they didn't have it in my size. Then I saw the oversized 37" tall stuffed panda's and wanted one SO badly because I'm a little needy for cuddles lately - but didn't want to get him wet in the rain. I left Costco with 2 pantry boxes of gum because I'm a gum fiend - then spent an hour and a half in traffic back across town. #FirstWorldProblems
Yes, I do plan to get that Panda soon
After what seemed like so much running around I got home and napped with the light on and my shoes still on - even though I had a big night of a workout, laundry and silly TV on the agenda.
When I woke up around 8:30 I was still not productive like I'd planned to be, and instead got stuck on my laptop checking out Buzzfeed, reading blogs and microwaving my dinner. Before I knew it - it was 11:50pm and I had a this unstoppable craving for some peppermint ice cream. I wouldn't have driven to get the magical flavor but since my 24-hour grocery store is only 2 blocks away I literally had no excuse. When I got home, peppermint and I had a date. All in all, a good night.
Cool story, Jessi.
Here's something for everyone!
Well this is embarrassing.
I'm not sure how this slipped through the cracks
oh yeah, probably the month-long blogging hiatus but Saturday is the day to celebrate my 26th year on this earth!
You would think that since it's a Saturday birthday for a city girl that I'd have plans to be wined and dined, hit the town in my dancing shoes and come home so late that I'd be greeting the sunrise as I fumbled my way through my front door.
That might sound fun for some of you wild and still ready to party people out there - the honest truth is that my introverted self is looking forward to something a little calmer.
Exciting weekend + other non-birthday related activities that won't leave me exhausted for Monday will help to carry on my happy, relaxed and productive lifestyle I've been living.
Just as proof that I'm not the party animal I once was, one of the amazing adult birthday presents I'm so excited about from mom and dad is a windshield replacement! My poor car has had a huge gash on her pretty face since the summer.
And hey, if you want to get me a present I won't stop you!
So let me tell you a story about this morning.
I left the house later than usual. Why?
Because I left a bit later, traffic was more congested than usual - even with all of the sneaky shortcuts I have to get through town in a traffic jam.
This situation would have put old me (circa 4 months ago) into a fit of panic.
"I'm late! I'm going to be so behind! I have a mountain of work at my desk! It's going to be such a stressful day!"
Today, however - I handled it the same way that I've been handling it the past 5 weeks - by stopping in to Peet's coffee shop for an almond milk latte.
Doesn't this just make me more late? Yes it does. But to me the "late" doesn't apply anymore like it used to.
The latte is a symbol of freedom, a sign of a relaxed attitude, a person who can stroll in to the office with her hands cradled around a warm latte and say "Hello! Good morning! Happy Hump Day!".
That mountain of work I used to stress about is still there, but the way I have learned to approach it is so much more productive and present.
This latte isn't just a latte - it's just one of the many signs of a new and improved version of me.
Ready for a good TED Talk?
First, do me a favor and think very hard of the last time you did simply n o t h i n g. No phone, no laptop, no worrying, no planning, no chores - nothing.
Can you think of a time? It's pretty hard for me as well and even thinking about thinking nothing seems like it would be difficult.
My brain and probably yours too is always turned on. Unfortunately we have done ourselves a huge disservice by not allowing rest for our minds every once in a while. We have somehow convinced ourselves that no brain 'down-time' is okay and just a part of the world that we live in. That instead of mental health we should focus our attention on physical health, appearance and social lives. Mental health is just as critical as food, water, air, love and self worth.
The present moment is so valuable and yet so underrated. Sadly, what we miss out on when we are not mindful of the moment is life itself. We ignore the here and now and are distracted by the clouds and veils of stress, responsibility, emotions and simple anxiety.
In the quiet moments that I've experienced over the past month I've learned how critical it is to let your mind sit in the back seat and to allow your senses to take over. Seeing, feeling, hearing, tasting, smelling - you can be so present when you abandon worries and fears - do yourself a favor and allow the human experience take over, if only for just 10 minutes a day.
Hello and Happy Monday, friends and family!
Also hello to all of Brooke's friends that are checking in because she put me on blast today!
Thank you for understanding my temporary pause from blogging as I've experienced some big changes in my world over the past month. Like any change, it takes time to understand yourself and who you are, but most importantly the changes I've experienced have been a catalyst to help me realize the important things that truly matter. Things like love, friendships, trust, mental health, balance.
I am happy, healthy and enjoying some well-deserved time to focus on myself. The me that was writing before was burning the candle at both ends, working too hard and placing too much pressure on workouts, blogging and being everyone's everything.
The new me that's writing today comes in to work 2 hours later (and I'm still the 3rd person in the building), stops and gets a coffee before coming in to work, only has a running goal of 50 miles a month (half!), is doing strength training, is drinking ALL THE WATER, and only has that little twitchy eye once in a blue moon. This girl also took an entire week of work off in October. This girl feels balanced.
Speaking of balance, this weekend was a perfect example of what is important to me. Coffee dates, girl chats and much overdue real-talk with some of my closest ladies who probably have felt neglected the past year as my life has gotten career-crazy.
Sit back, smell the fresh roast and thank you for sticking around and supporting me.