Wednesday, July 24, 2013

And Somehow He Still Loves Me

Normally on Thursdays we throw it back and I talk about something that's going on in my world today (usually work) that sounds a lot like little Jessi and I include a cute photo from the 90's.


Today we're not going down memory lane, but instead we're going to talk about my guy.


...Actually, before we talk about him I'd like to paint the picture of what the past 4 months has looked like for 'us'.


Starting in April, my job got really serious really quickly. Like, knock me on my face and sit me in front of a computer for 12 hours a day serious. From training new co-workers to taking on more responsibilities that anyone would ever entrust in a 25 year old, my "life" outside of work is really just repairing from all of the hard work I'm putting in and churning out.


We 'used to'...


We used to carpool, we used to run together, we used to head to the coast for the weekend and we used to actually have conversations with each other. We even used to show affection toward one another rather than a kiss on the forehead in passing.


Nowadays, I get home from a 12-14 hour work day (plus up to 2 hours total commute) and can't think to do a single thing.



I don't have the energy to feed the cat, to do laundry, dishes, not even cut an avocado for the smallest portion of our dinners (the dinners that he's prepped over the weekend).


My guy does it all, doesn't complain about it and only asks me for help when he really needs it, because he knows how much I've been through day in and day out and wants to help me... just because he cares.


After all he does for me, I still somehow find it necessary to gripe every single weekend about the amount of time he spends playing golf and working his second job at a golf course. Forgetting about all the time I'm away from him either working or running.


I throw a toddler fit for two reasons: 1. I love spending time with him. 2. I miss laughing every day with my best friend.


Our relationship has had setbacks at the hand of my career this spring and summer - and he has been the most supportive, caring, wonderful guy through all of it.


Tuesday night this week I finally cracked.


Since last week's trip to Canada, I've been low on sleep, developed a twitchy eye (don't lie and tell me it's not noticeable, please tell it how it is and say I look like shit), and was at work with back and forth emails and reports until 9pm Tuesday.


I drove home exhausted - which is probably the equivalent of buzzed - and walked in the door to flowers and candles on the table, a dinner that never happened and shoe boxes stacked up on the side table.


As if the tears I shed on the drive home weren't enough, I dramatically dropped all of my bags onto the floor, wrapped my arms around him and did my worst best ugly cry for 15 minutes straight,  repeating between shuffled breaths how much I love him.


Wouldn't you love him too?




For a guy who does everything and asks for absolutely nothing in return - I can't believe he's still in love with me too.


Dan, you're my everything. Let's have more fun together, please? 


15 comments

LG said...

Wow. I feel like you just wrote the story of my life! My work hours aren't that crazy but I go to school at night and spend most of what little free time I have complaining or feeling too brain dead to do anything! Sounds like you have a great guy!

Rachel Sedaker said...

Aw, he sounds like a good guy. :)

Jessi said...

he's undeniably the best.

Pinky said...

awwww so so so so sweet! Boyfriends can really make a crappy day 2034820384 times better. Mine has been awesome through all the drama this week. Great post!

Marisa @ Uproot from Oregon said...

Wow. This post makes me want to crawl up on your couch and watch how strong and mature your relationship is becoming. Hope that isn't weird.. I'll cuddle with the kitty and not make a peep : ) Don't be so hard on yourself- he knows you are making this career your own and that it will pay off in the long run to have a successful lady to fund his golf trips (just kidding) ; )

Kayla Moothart said...

This is so amazing! I love how much he cares about you and wants you to comfortably (or as comfortable as possible) get through this busy time!

brooke lyn said...

vomit in my mouth. you guys are disgustingly cute and i say that with love.

pechluck (@pechluck) said...

So happy for both of you, and lucky for your catch that he has the patience to not only weather through the downs that every woman has, but turn it around and bring you up from them! I also love your honesty on why you get upset with him and that it's an extension of what you want- it made me think a little bit about the things I'm annoyed with my man with and understanding it's part of my view, not anything he's doing/not doing.

tbrehse said...

Wow, you had me tearing up there for a sec! What a guy. Seriously. You are both lucky to have each other! Just know that this rough time won't last forever.

Jessi said...

seriously, this guy is unbelievable and I don't even know what I'd do without him. Life is good and it's amazing with someone like him in it.

Jessi said...

Yeah, we have to give our guys a break sometimes when what they're doing isn't 'wrong', it's just something that's not what we had in mind, even if we don't explicitly tell them!

Michelle Caplan said...

Hang onto him tight Jessi, don't let go, he is a keeper!

Jessi said...

No question about that, he's my everything! :)

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